It's been a while since I've written, but I realized that, because I now live at home, I have no way to effectively release my joys and frustrations. While at school I talk to my roommates and friends, and they are always very open to what I have to say. While I am always open with my parents and tell them about everything, sometimes they can seem a little critical of my choices. But my blog isn't going to be that way :) Since I last wrote, Michael and I have really grown as a couple and matured so much. I thought I was done maturing, but my relationship with him has definitely proven me wrong. He treats me so well, and God could not have blessed me with a better man to be such a huge part of my life. I have never had so much fun with anybody, and it doesn't ever matter what we are doing... sometimes we just sit on the couch, yet I am never bored. I am so glad he moved to Fort Worth so during the school year it isn't quite as difficult to spend time together as it used to be. He is the first thing I think about in the mornings, and the last thing I think about at night before I go to sleep.
I have also started applications for med school... and I have never been more frustrated in my life. I have spent countless hours and hundreds of dollars just to APPLY to these schools... and I am not even guaranteed a spot. But this process, as inefficient and ridiculous as it is, has really shown me that medicine is my true calling. I don't have that much money, yet I am willing to spend it on something that I might not reap the benefits of. I started spending some time up at Primary Care Clinic, and my love for patients has only increased. My Spanish, while greatly improved, sometimes doesn't cut it and I can get frustrated... but I love taking it slow and figuring out what they are telling me. There is a great sense of satisfaction walking out of a room and the patient says "muchas gracias por tu ayuda, senorita." I have also started volunteering at Real Choices pregnancy center, which offers free pregnancy tests and information about options for mothers facing crisis pregnancies. While I will start as a receptionist, eventually I will become a counselor and counsel young women facing potential pregnancy. I cannot wait to get in there and see how God can use me in this ministry.
Man, I love summer... I have done nothing but volunteer, watch Law and Order, and hang out with my family and Michael. But with all this spare time sometimes I forget about God... I have soooo much extra time, yet my quiet times are as short as they are during finals week. What's wrong with that picture? This is something I am trying to solve through my own actions... through the way I live my life. Through my attitude at the clinic, through the telephone at the pregnancy center, and through my relationship with Michael. Everything I do needs to glorify the Lord, and I ask that everyone who reads this (even though it may be no one...) would pray for me, that I will only improve in my efforts. Goodnight, and God bless!